So, it has been a while... since I posted something before this.
Many things happened lately. I had arguments with my boyfriend, it really broke my heart to know how he don't appreciate me all the while. "Love isnt just cuddling or whispering sweet nothings, its compromising, sacrificing & giving up something just to make the relationship last." Who else won't understand the meaning? My boyfriend.
All he ever wanted to keep was his so-called-FACE. He thinks guys shouldn't be scolded and all but should be treated well, cuddled with so much of love from me. He said I'm always grumbling, and often say that I'm never satisfied with him, always wanting more and everything he does just won't satisfy me, so he's tired and giving up. We had a break up, but I refused.
Then, I tried to approach him by telling him, that it was his fault too. And all he said was, I only wanted to win the arguments all the time, and he's always wrong and I'm always right.
From this extent, I just couldn't stand him anymore, you know what I'm trying to say? He's always saying that I treated him so bad, BUT HE DIDN'T EVEN REALISE WHAT HE DID TO ME AND REFUSE TO ADMIT HIS OWN FAULT AND TRY TO BLAME ME BACK INSTEAD.
So I kinda said this to him. And he said it back to me. It's just so heart-breaking. Oh god, if I ever have the strength, I would let go of him since he can so easily let me go and even asked me to get another boyfriend. But no God, I just don't have the strength to do so. Please save me from these sufferings, oh my Lord. I don't want a boyfriend like him too, like how much he doesn't want me.